…that is the question. Additionally, to be gay or not to be gay? To be Mormon or not to be Mormon? To sell (the apartment), or not to sell? And what will I eat for lunch today?
Yes, my life as The Invisible Man is plum full of options. Each day as I wake (at whatever time I opt) I’m faced with choices. What to eat, what to wear, what to do, what to watch, where to go, in what order. I’m nearly paralyzed by my choices, which is why I haven’t blogged for awhile. Writing these posts takes at least the teensiest amount of brain power, time, and motivation, not to mention having something to say/post that is actually worthwhile.
If I post, will anyone care? Will anyone read it? Will anyone comment? If I don’t post, will anyone care? Why am I posting anyway? Is it for my own edification in “writing,” or is it for sympathy, or validation? If I’m posting only for myself, should I put personal observations about others there, even though I know that this *isn’t* a private diary, but a public journal that is conceivably available to millions of people each day?
As an example, I’m particularly cautious talking about Mark Foley, not because I’m not critical of him (though I’m not, not really) but because I’m nervous that people I know and love might find my thoughts and criticize *me* for them.
I hesitated blogging partly because I thought The Invisible Man blog was getting too Mormon a tone for me, for what I originally intended. And yet, I wouldn’t want to ostracize my Mormon friends, or my gay friends either. Someone without criticism is passive, and can hardly be seen to have high standards of moral or social behavior. I guess I don’t have high standards. I want EVERYONE to love me.
But if I type nothing, no one will know me enough to love me.
If you blog, what’s your motivation for it?